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Tucker

When asked to think of the happiest moment in their lives most people would pick a monumental day. Perhaps it would be their wedding, or the birth of their first child. For Tucker Osbourne, it would always be the blizzard at Braxton Hill Station.

It was all because of a train delay. It was early December and the first heavy snowfall of the year brought the city to a standstill. It was 6:10 pm and the sun had long since disappeared behind the silhouette of the city. The first wave of office workers had already come and gone from the station, determined not to find themselves working a minute after 5pm. Though barely an hour had passed their footsteps had already begun to fade under a new blanket of snow. The yellow lamps that lined the train platform illuminated fat, white flakes so thick that Tucker could barely see the end the end of the walkway just 30 feet away. Snow muffled the usual noise of the commotion, though even the stillness of winter could not mask the rising agitation from the post-work hoard that shoved its way onto the platform. The narrow stretch of walkway between the train tracks was becoming increasingly crowded as people shuffled in, shoulder-to-shoulder like penguins. It was a delicate dance. No one was willing to sacrifice their spot near the edge where the doors would emerge so the throng of people expanded from the center, until even the slightest unwatched elbow might force someone off the platform and onto the rails. The train was officially three minutes late.

The automated chime rang over the loudspeaker and a heavily accented voice spoke. "Attention, attention. Due to an intruder at track level all service on Line One has been suspended. Emergency response has been dispatched to the scene. We anticipate longer than normal wait times Eastbound between Harbourfront and Glendon. Expect minimum fifteen minutes of delays."

Groans erupted across the train station. A stout businessman in an ill-fitting brown suit shook his head and muttered to himself, "Every damn time." He looked up and upon realizing that no one had knowingly nodded or whined in agreement, he repeated himself louder before trying to force his way back towards the station house.

Intruder announcements were becoming increasingly frequent, though hardly a daily occurrence. More often than not an animal had wandered into the tunnels for warmth and refused to get off the tracks. Occasionally it was a car stopped too close to the line or an abandoned bike in the way.  On the rare instance it was a suicide, though the announcements never differentiated.

A few years ago even a single announcement would have caused murmurs of panic or fear but the rise in incidents combined with the increasingly quick emergency response times made it, at worst, an annoyance.

Following the overhead announcement the crowd began to disperse. People began to back away from the edge of the platform. A group of women in matching teal scrubs and puffed winter coats huddled inside a glass enclosure, pressed together like cigarettes in a pack. Many of the grumbling commuters began to shuffle back into the station alongside the brown suited man where they could hide from the cold. Tucker felt a misplaced sense of pride and camaraderie with the few people who remained on the platform. Maybe they would freeze, but they would freeze together, first in line for the train.

There was some kind of commotion beginning at the far end of the platform. Amidst the flurry of snow Tucker could hear the rise of unintelligible voices. Curious, he walked towards them, backtracking occasionally to try and seem as though he were trying to keep warm rather than eavesdrop. He could feel the sting of snow slipping into the collar of his coat, momentarily burning before running coldly down the back of his neck. The treads on his winter boots were beginning to wear down from salt and ice and Tucker slid slightly with every step. He was almost at the end of the platform when he saw the source of the noise.  An Asian man in a navy suit was pacing back and forth at then end of the platform. He was shouting something about a government conspiracy, waving his arms every few seconds to emphasize whatever he seemed to think were his key points. Onlookers, too polite to openly flee, edged sideways away from the man until he was given a wide venue in which to rant.

“They’re running your fucking MINDS,” the man shouted.

No coat, thought Tucker, that’s how you know he’s crazy. If it weren’t for the man’s apparent immunity to winter and his monologue on government control, Tucker would have mistaken him for an average businessman. As the man shook his head furiously with every word, his perfectly gelled hair did not move. His suit appeared to have been recently pressed and below the hem of his trousers peeked a pair of matching crimson socks. Rather than boots, he wore shoes that were so polished they shone. For a few moments he fell silent, as though lost in thought, and for the briefest second Tucker thought he may have imagined the whole scene. Then the man pivoted suddenly and his arm knocked into a middle-aged woman who was pretending to focus on the free transit newspaper. She yelped and scurried back towards the voyeurs, a few checking to make sure she was alright.

“That’s him,” a woman said as she passed Tucker. Two Transit Officials hurried after her. Tucker was momentarily taken aback. In six years of riding the train he had never seen anyone respond to any disturbances on the platform. The group stopped several feet short of them man, watching his performance but keeping a far distance. Eventually one of the men ambled forward and muttered something to the yelling man.

“FUCK OFF,” yelled the man, refusing to look at the office, “These people have a right to know!”

“You have to calm down, sir, you are upsetting people,” the officer looked back towards the crowd at his partner and the woman, as though searching for some kind of confirmation.

“Or what? Or you’ll call the pigs in on me? The whole lot of you are in on –“
“Or ELSE,” interjected the officer, “I can’t allow you on the train.”

“What fucking train? There’s no train, didn’t you hear them? They can spending billions of dollars locking us all up but they can’t spend money on shit that actually helps people, like a train that fucking runs on time. Even Mussolini managed to get working trains and he was almost as bad a fascist as the ones we have now!” The man was growing louder, though his pacing had stopped. Tucker hoped he might be wearing himself out, a thought that appeared to be shared by the officer.

“Very well. Just, uh, settle down then, and we’ll see what happens. I uh, know you’re agitated about the train, sir, we all are. Just. You know, if you could keep it together please.” The officer looked pleased with himself and began to head away from the man in the suit, who continued to rant, though without the same level of gusto. The two officers left the scene, leaving behind the woman who began to chase after them. The snow swallowed their conversation but by the time group reached Tucker the officers were several paces ahead. The woman was only a few paces away from Tucker when he finally saw her clearly.  Jessica, he thought. Her copper curls were wet and limp, half tucked into the collar of her emerald felt coat. Her face was pale, barely visible through the snow, but her cheeks burned pink from the cold. Inside red wool mittens Tucker could see her fists curl in agitation.

Jessica, focused on the officers, marched down the platform towards them. Tucker watched her closer and she drew near. Both of them were so focused on other people that no one noticed the man in the suit break into a run. He began to sprint down the platform as though he were being chased. Tucker spotted the man just as his elbow caught Jessica’s shoulder blade and caused her to tumble forward. Tucker’s heart leapt and he inhaled sharply as he thrust his hand out towards her. He did not exhale until he felt his fingers lock themselves around her wrist and pull her back towards him.

“Are you ok?” Tucker gasped.


“Fine. I was, like, three feet from the edge of the platform,” Jessica laughed, though as her eyes met Tucker’s he could see fear.

I wanted to protect you, thought Tucker. What he said out loud was, “Sorry. Just worried with all the ice and everything.”

“It’s totally ok. Not ok, sorry, thank you. Thank you for grabbing me. I’m being obnoxious, I’m just annoyed at them.” She waved one of her mitten-adorned hands towards the transit officers as they faded into the snow farther down the platform.

Tucker nodded. The two were silent for a moment before he realized that he was still holding her wrist. He lightly released his fingers, hoping she may not have noticed through all her winter clothes. He felt a blush rise into his cheeks in mortification and stared intently at the ground in the hopes she wouldn’t see.

“You know they can’t do anything?”

“What?” Tucker was still busy thinking about his lingering grasp.

“Those officer men. They’re note allowed to do anything. I told them this guy is raving and shouting because I figured he might cause a panic, hurt someone, push someone, blah blah blah, and they told me they aren’t allowed to do anything! They can ask him to leave or not to get on a train but if he ignores them they’re just screwed. It’s not their job. How utterly stupid is that?”

“I thought they were cops,” said Tucker.

“They’re train cops. Closer to mall cops, I think, than anything else.” There was laughter in her voice, though Tucker could not see her face. His focus was still on the tips of his boots and the pattern of the tiles below his feet. They spiralled out into filthy mosaics that disappeared under grey sludgy footprints. Tucker glanced over at the tips of Jessica’s boots. They were black and blunt, as though steel toed.

“I’m – “ Tucker began to introduce himself but was cut short by the chirp of an overhead announcement.

A chipper, pre-recorded man’s voice said, “Here at MetroRail, safety is our top priority! If you see something suspicious, report it to our nearest uniformed Transit Enforcement Officer. Safety starts with you.”

Jessica laughed rolled her grey eyes and shaking her head so that her wet curls escaped her collar and stuck to her cheeks.

“Think they planned that,” Tucker asked.

“I doubt it. There have just been so many lunatics lately. I swear, I can’t remember the last week I went without someone on my train shouting something. Though that’s the best dressed conspiracy theorist I’ve ever seen.”

Tucker nodded his head in agreement. Jessica began to speak again but her words were drowned out by a loud, repeated thudding noise. As the noise grew louder, Tucker found himself quickly growing warmer, unable to feel the snow.

That was strange. The train wouldn’t even come for another ten minutes. The crowd on the platform was still too thin; the ranting man had not yet begun to sing about police oversight; they hadn’t even introduced themselves yet. Tucker tried to look around but was unable to see anything past Jessica’s face.

THUMP. THUMP. THUMP.

Jessica was fumbling in her coat pocket for something. Her phone. She wasn’t going to find it.

THUMP. THUMP. THUMP.

“Call yourself on mine, see if you can hear it ring,” Tucker heard himself saying the oldest pick-up line he knew.

THUMP. THUMP. THUMP. TUCKER!

Jessica was nodding, her red mitten reached out towards him in anticipation. The noise was growing louder.  Tucker tried to concentrate on the sound of Jessica’s voice. He focused on the feeling of his fingers brushing against loose threads in his pockets as he dug for his phone. THUMP. THUMP. THUMP.

The feeling of winter air in the station had entirely disappeared. The feeling of excited, nervous anxiety that had rested high in Tucker’s chest began to fade. Jessica opened her mouth to speak but she froze. The train platform began to flicker as the voice calling Tucker’s name grew more clear and he realized that he recognized it.

TUCKER! THUMP. THUMP. THUMP.


Jessica’s cool grey eyes met Tucker’s for a brief second before she disappeared. Tucker was plunged into darkness. There was someone at the door.

New Excerpt (It's a long one)



“Come on little birdy, eat the tomato!” Jodi was waving a forkful of salad as Jo’s face but her son’s lips were pressed shut. “You don’t have to eat it but you won’t get any other dinner.” She held it up for a few more seconds before Jo obliged and nibbled at the lettuce around the squished tomato bits.
Jodi had found the smallest plates she could to bring with her when they ate out in the hopes that heaping food onto their small surfaces would somehow mask the fact that they were forced to share a single fast-food salad. It pained her when Jo was picky – she could hardly afford to buy a second meal when he refused the first. But even she was forced to admit that the burgundy tomatos and soft lettuce was unappetizing.
“Jodi? Oh my God hi!” Lydia Collins bounded over, a blue in a pink top and what were either tiny white shorts or her underwear. “Oh my God, what are you doing here?” she asked, as though there were more than one reason why someone would be at a MacDonald’s at 7pm.
Lydia was Jodi’s shift supervisor at the Diner 55. “But don’t take it seriously, I’m no better than all the rest o’ ya’ll!” she would laugh during meetings. Provided Jodi had had her morning cup of coffee, she generally liked Lydia despite the constant perky attitude. No one worked at the 55 if they had any other options so Jodi was forced to admire the girl’s constant optimism. She was about to answer when Lydia squealed again.
“Oh man, is that him? Is that your little dude? Hi there! I’m Lydia! I work with your mommy!” Jo stared at the girl, blue-eyes wide. He looked like a Renaissance painting of a cherub caught in mid-glance, but he was shaking.  Jodi dropped the salad fork and held her hand out to him. He gripped two of her fingers and squeezed. Hard.
“He can’t talk, “ Jodi said, “so he hasn’t figured out yet how best to greet people.”
“I see. Is he, you know…” Lydia stage-whispered so loud that the teenager janitor turn to stare, “is he retarded?
“What? No! He’s just got a problem with his throat or something. I don’t think you’re supposed to ask that…”
Jo let up his grip slightly and waved a few fingers at Lydia, who had turned the same burgundy as the wilted tomatoes.
“Look Jodi, why don’t you and your kid join us??” Before Jodi could respond Lydia picked up the two pitiful plates and carried them over to a boot. Jodi shrugged at Jo and rolled her eyes as obviously as she could. She couldn’t wait until he understood what that meant. She held out her hand and he wriggled out of his seat, following his mother over to the group.
“Ok everyone!” Lydia announced as Jodi slid into the booth beside her, “This is Jodi and… mm.. Little Dude!”
“It’s Jo,” Jodi muttered, though no one heard.
“’K, Jodi, that’s Sandra – she works makeup at Arcadia Mall, Ali, Josh – ignore him, he’s a tool but he has a job at a grocery store and gets us discounts – Wes and Kate.” She failed to point to a single person as she explained.
“Hi everyone.” Jodi slid into the booth next to a chubby girl with long, auburn dreadlocks and a silver ring through her septum. She smelled faintly of cilantro but Jodi knew that she still smelled like work and the mould that lived in her car seats so she wasn’t in a position to judge.
Across from the white girl with the dreads was a girl, no bigger than five feet tall, wearing an outfit identical to Lydia’s. Her head rested on the shoulders of a shaggy-haired boy in a Pink Floyd shirt who was busy eating dead-girl’s French fries. Across from him was a guy in a suit, though he tie looked like it was tied with a boy scout knot and his top three buttons were undone. Finally, a girl slouched in the corner, mouth open while she napped. The guy in the Pink Floyd shirt occasionally threw balled-up bits of straw wrappers at her tongue.
Lydia immediately turned to the girl in the matching clothes and continued a half-completed story about an unpleasant customer who had come in earlier that day. Periodically she would turn to Jodi and say “Back me up here!” Jodi would raise her eyebrows and nod. It was mostly true. Ish.
“So what’s your deal, man?” Pink Floyd leaned across the table at Jo, who was too busy watching Dread’s French fries to notice.
“He doesn’t really have a deal, he’s three,” Jodi said for him as she lifted more salad to her son.
“Come on. Everyone’s got a deal. Like Sandy there – hers is putting makeup on people and pretending that she’s not the whitest girl you know. Mine’s art.”
“You’re an artist?” Jodi asked.
“No,” said the sleeping girl, wiping bits of paper from her mouth, “he knows how to play Smoke on the Water on the guitar. He’s a grocery clerk – “
“By day! By night I’m like the Batman of music before he donned the mask. Wonder in-training.”
“Don’t even, Josh. Before he was Batman he was a rich Christian Bale. You’re a 25 year-old who still lives with his step-mom.” Lydia was suddenly in the conversation.
“Whatever. I was just trying to show interest in the chick’s kid.” Jodi instinctively put a hand on the back of her son’s head as she always did when he was being discussed by strangers.
“So you’re like… what?” Lydia’s twin asked.
“Twenty. I mean almost 21.”
“Young, I like it.”
“Shut up, Josh, don’t be a creep,” said the twin. There was a thud as her shoe hit Josh’s shin.
“Sorry, she knows I was kidding. I was kidding.”
“It’s fine,” said Jodi.
There was a long pause. Twin looked like she wanted to ask something but couldn’t after having kicked Josh. The sleeping girl had gone back to her open-mouthed slouch. Dreads offered Jo a fry, which he rapidly shoved in his mouth before looking to his mom to ask if he could have it.
“So is this some kind of fast-food party I just crashed with my salad?” Jodi asked to break the silence.
“No,” laughed Lydia, “Coffee date. We used to do this thing called Coffee Tuesdays at that place – Morocco’s, you know? With the giant Man-Eating Clam on the wall?”
“There’s no such thing as –“
“Shut up, Wes! Anyways, we all know each other through this lame barbeque thing our parents used to do every summer so after we got too old for it we started getting together once a week to keep in touch and we just kept doing it until we stopped getting allowances –“
“Hey, for some of us that was a decade ago –“
“I can’t help that you’re really old, Josh. Anyways, on day we realized that we could get a whole meal here for the price of a coffee at Morocco’s and yeah. Except that we still call it Coffee Tuesdays because despite what Ali insists, Weekly McDicks was not an acceptable alternative.”
“Right”
“You’re totally welcome to come next time. You should! It would be fun! Like if you get a night off from being a mom or something you should come out with us!”
“Ok. If I get a night off, I’ll let you know maybe.”
“No, really, please,” said Dreadlock-Girl-Who-Was-Probably-Sandra.
Suit Boy looked up from his napkin, where he was holding Jo’s attention with some kind of doodle, “We need new blood. You can only listen to the opening riff of Deep Purple so many times before you think you’ll go postal.”
Jodi nodded at the girl but excused herself. It was late and Jo would never get up the next morning if she didn’t let him home soon. She thanked Lydia and gathered Jo, who pointed and wriggled until she picked up the napkin that had been in front of them on the table. On it, the boy in the suit had drawn a shell with the title Regular Plankton Eating Clam.

Another Excerpt

When Bruce awoke, whiskey breath lingered in the fibres of his pillowcase and mixed with the smell of the sweat left when his forehead had hit the bed a few hours before. He always sweat when he drank.

His pants were wrinkled and creased high on his shins from where he had furiously rubbed his ankles together in an attempt to push off his socks. He’d been fifty percent successful. At least he had managed to lose his shoes before collapsing.

Bruce was not what you would call a bourbon man. He enjoyed a glass of scotch when the world went to hell, drank more beer than he should and fancied himself an amateur sommelier but on the list of beverages he preferred to keep stashed in his private cabinet, whiskey came pretty low. But the first rule of business drinking was that it was client’s choice.

 “Never appear cheap, never appear weak!” his boss would say. And so it was that when the five foot two blonde in the pink suit for whom Bruce was working ordered herself Jack Daniel’s, Bruce was not to be outdone.

She was a socialite, one of those heiress types who made money simply by being recognizable. When it was discovered that she was, in fact, the product of an affair and so unlikely to inherit the fortune fueling her fame, the girl was eager to make the findings disappear. Bruce could not remember much past the drinks.

The room was spinning around him. More so than usual. He had bought an apartment in one of Arcadia’s seven revolving towers entirely for snob appeal and while it often turned heads, it had a habit of turning his stomach after a night out. He groaned as he lifted himself out of bed, able to feel his brain wince as it crashed against his skull. He tried to remember where the washroom was. 4:47am. It was on the right of the bed after 3 am, he thought. But was it Wednesday or Tuesday? It switched direction on the 15th of every month.

He stumbled across the soft wood until he felt a bump followed by the reassuring stillness of the tile. The apartments were each like donuts, stacked one on top of the other, each floor rotating the opposite direction from the one below it. In the center of the building was the stable column holding the elevators and all rooms requiring plumbing. Bruce fumbled for the doorknob and felt briefly for the light switch but was unable to find it. He gave up, bracing a hand against the wall as he clumsily undid the button of his pants. He could make out a smooth curve of a basin in the dark. Toilet, sink, shower. It was all the same at this hour.

He was about four seconds in when he heard the unmistakable sound of liquid on metal. It cut through the silence of the apartment, reverberating through his hungover head.

Shit. Not again. It wasn’t the toilet at all but a metal bowl that he had left on a stool that afternoon. He couldn't stop mid-piss so he waited until he was finished before feeling again for the light, this time on the opposite wall. Sure enough, the room burst to bright white, the sink visible, the chrome of the fridge. Bruce was pissing in his kitchen.

He thought about cleaning it for a minute but the ache that had wrapped its way around his temple had begun to seep into the back of his eyes. The light had to go off. Pants still undone, Bruce shuffled back to the main apartment, tripping as he shifted onto the moving floor. He sank face-first into the cushions of the couch and fell back to sleep.

Bruce Leiden

This is an attempt to start building a character for a bigger project. Please let me know what you think.



There was a thread loose on Bruce Leiden’s pants.  He had first noticed it on his way into work and had proceeded to spend the better part of the morning trying to figure out how to get rid of it without making a hole.  It had been a slow day at the office.  He had moved some files, created some meaningless spreadsheets and lost a couple dollars at online poker but mostly he had worried about the thread on his pants.  It had begun to bother him so much that he decided that at the end of the day he would just go out and buy a whole new pair. 
In the meantime he sat in his office watching the other employees bustle to and from the lunchroom with looks of smug satisfaction on their faces.  Linda, his secretary, would take an extra ten minutes for lunch and feel that this act of rebellion made the rest of the afternoon worth it.  Gary from accounting was on his way back from doing the coffee run and, like every day, had kept most of the change; one day he would save up enough of his coworkers’ money to buy himself a new television.  The IT staff all brought in their leftovers and sat at a table in the break room watching Antiques Roadshow for their hour.  And Bruce sat and in his leather chair, thinking about his loose thread and how glad he was not to be one of them.
There was a knock at the door and the face of his ever-eager boss appeared. “Hullo Bruce!” said Mr. Wainwright, “Got a spare minute? I know it’s your lunch but I’ve got a lovely young woman here with a whole lot of questions!”
“Sure thing,” said Bruce.  There was a shuffling noise, some quiet whispers, and an elderly woman timidly poked her head around the corner.  Mr. Wainwright beamed at her and placed a meaty hand on her shoulder, guiding into a chair facing Bruce’s desk.
“What seems to be the trouble today?”
“Well, um.  I seem to be unable to find my financial records,” the old woman mumbled.  She looked nervously at the two men.
“Have you tried looking at your personal account on our website?” Bruce asked.  This was his mantra.
“Well, um, you see no.  I don’t think I have a personal account.”
“How about I show you how to set one up right now? Then you can see them at home any time you would like.”  Old people exasperated Bruce.  He had spent the better part of a year making their online platform completely foolproof, or so he had thought. He failed to factor in the unwillingness of their older clients to simply try to find the information they needed on their own.
He beckoned the woman over and Wainwright mouthed thank you at him before rushing out of the room.  The woman pulled out a pair of pink plastic glasses from inside her purse and held them up in front of her the way Bruce’s mother often did.  Patiently he loaded the company website, created her a new personal page and asked to her to create some security questions.
“I’ll just get you to check – your name is Eleanor Vanhorn?”
“It is.”
“And this is your current address, telephone number, etcetera?”
“Yes.”
“Now I’ll just create some security questions in case you lose any of the information you need to login.  If you ever have any problems in the future we’re going to ask you these questions to make sure no one is trying to steal your identity. Understand? What was the name of your first pet?” he asked.
“Sugar.  No, that was the first dog. I had a cat before that but I can’t remember her name. Max?  No, that was the second one – “
Bruce cut her off, “You have to be able to remember the answer. We’ll try another one.  Mother’s maiden name?”
“Rogers. That was also my dear late husband’s mother’s maiden name. She always insisted that we couldn’t get married because our children would have two heads.  Didn’t stop her from marrying her first cousin, I noticed.”
“Alright. Rogers.  Name of first born child?”
“Humphrey. After Humphrey Bogart. Jack and I watched Casablanca on our first date.”
“Charming.  That’s that, I think.  Now you have a personal account.  I’ll just write down the username and password for you and you can access this from home any time.”
“Oh, no, I couldn’t do that. I don’t have a computer at home.”
“I beg your pardon?”
“I don’t have a computer.”
“Then why did we set up a personal account?”
“Well I thought perhaps I needed one. But I can’t do anything about it from home. Can’t you just tell me the financial information?”
“Certainly, but what happens the next time you need to know how your money is doing?”
“I’ll come back. Or you’ll mail it to me.  You know there was a time when you could just walk in and they knew you by name?”
“I’m sure that’s the case Mrs. Vanhorn, however this is the digital age.  We work on the expectation that most of our clients have some access to technology.”  Wainwright was pacing outside the room and Bruce tried to catch his eye but his boss pretended not to notice.
“May I request that in the future you simply mail me this information?” Mrs. Vanhorn was still blinking through her glasses at the computer screen, unable to comprehend the website.
“We’re paperless now.”
“I don’t care what you are, I pay you money and I would like to occasionally see some proof of that.”
Bruce rolled his eyes and turn off the computer screen.  He could tell this conversation was not going to go anywhere so he simply told her that the Questions Desk in the lobby was more equipped to deal with a mail request.  They would send her to the secretaries on the third floor who would ask her to call in from home and they would mysteriously ‘lose her information’ but at least it would get her out of Bruce’s hair for the afternoon.  He gave her a signature fake smile and waved as she wandered to the elevators, slammed the door shut, and went back to inspecting the loose thread on his pants.  He was, he thought, the highest paid deflector in the entire business world.

Occupy Chapters

**Warning: This is absurd. I mean absolutely. I have no idea what I wrote. This was all just a messed up dream I had.**


           The poster read “Occupy Chapters.” It had started big with Occupy City, then Neighborhood, then College, and had spread in a sporadic manner until it simply became a matter of convenience.  Occupying Craft Stores were especially popular because they sold markers and signs.  By now it was all just alphabetical.
            I went because I was desperate to make it big on Youtube.  Every fat kid who messes up a cover of Lady Gaga gets a partnership, surely a little clip of a riot could get a few thousand hits. I was imagining sports riots, smoke bombs, police brutality.
            What I found was a hardly a protest at all. The shelves were barren, as though people had suddenly become interested in books again. Most of the merchandise on the racks were chachkis that had little to do with literature.  I found myself entranced by a pen that hollered like a monkey every time you put it to the page. The overwhelming majority of the ‘protesters’ were a collection of gangly amputees and what I could only surmise were the recipients of plastic surgery from a person with no thumbs.
            Don’t get me wrong – this is not an attack on the disabled because I fully believe that they have better things to do than hang out protesting books.  These people appeared to have willingly sacrificed their own limbs and facial features for the opportunity to mimic Tim Burton creations. They stretched up the bookshelves like stretchy hands, all dressed in thin, black turtlenecks. Their foreheads couldn’t furrow with emotion.
            The man closest to me had two metal fingers. I wondered if it made his hands cold in the winter.  I started at him for a minute or two until he slithered so far into the books that he melted into them and disappeared altogether. This seemed to be quite a popular activity.
            I sat on the floor reading a novel. It was something about a high school girl. Hardly nail-biting, but I’d taken it off the shelf and I was comfortable on the carpet so it seemed like far too much effort to replace it with real literature.  Next to me was a rack of globe cozies – you know, for when your glove gets cold. At the top it bore what would have been the world’s largest monkey clambering over the North Pole. What was up with all the monkeys?
            A short man with two metal legs clacked over to me. He walked with crutches on both arms. When he reached my feet he put his elbows on my knees and leaned over the book.
            “It’s a store, not a library,” he hissed. His smile was awkwardly large, as though he’d spent a lot of time practicing his leer.
            “I’m… I’m going to buy it,” I said.  He didn’t move. I could feel the full weight of his body and his elbows dug deep into my legs. “I don’t get it. I thought the point of the occupy movement was to fuck with the big companies. Aren’t you all ‘down with Chapters?’”  He still didn’t move so I got up to buy the book. I felt guilty and didn’t want him to think I was just buying this teenage tripe because he told me to so I also snatched a monkey pen and the globe cozy.  His smile followed me to the counter. His crutches sounded robotic as he stalked behind me.
            The lady at the counter smiled a broad, toothy grin. She seemed completely unperturbed by the armless, legless spider people who decorated the store.  She gift-wrapped the pen for me.
            “Wow, you sure like monkeys!” Her voice was the colour pink.
            “Love ‘em,” I mumbled.
            She put my purchases in a wide, paper shopping bag with a fuchsia dog painted on the side. Tissue paper bubbled out the top.
            I snatched it and hurried outside only to find a mob of angry, screaming protestors. I guess they got too riled up before they reached the store.
            There were gasmasks everywhere. Young men wore scarves above their noses as they hoisted large signs bearing angry paragraphs. Police were corralling people behind walls of yellow tape. They kept their batons visible, held tight in their fists. They were yelling “Down with Chapters! Down with Chapters!” while the teenagers threw rocks yelling “Words are the revolution of tomorrow!”
            I took out my cell phone – I had a video camera but 3.5 megapixels seems so much more unplanned and legitimate.  A girl next to me who asked what I’d bought distracted me and I suddenly felt compelled to tell her the tale of the man with no legs.
             My mother’s voice suddenly appeared as she walked past. “Chase has been stabbed,” she said.
            I knew a girl in elementary school whose cousin’s name was Chase. While I’d never met him, he was the person who sprang to mind whenever I heard the name. To be honest, when I looked up I did not look for the stabbing but instead to see if I could catch the eye of the girl who I had not spoken to since I was eight years old. It was not until I noticed the red splattered across the bridge of my converse shoes that it occurred that I too am named Chase.

Our Birdcage

 
I’ve whispered through the grass the tale of our claret soldiery. 

Reduced to a wrestle on the ground where we shed champagne selves you fled

And I sat, as I sit now, on the shock, sword at feet

Because even when you’re beat there’s further to fall.

My uniform’s torn from all the battles that I’ve bled

From the cavalries I’ve never led because I don’t want to be the one who said

The truth.

Every time you trespass through my mind I find

That the only reason I bound myself to you was so that

You could let me free.

Set me away.

When I said goodbye to the cartoon of Yesterday I meant it.

But it keeps creeping through my skin

Like it’s hell bent on sending me off the edge.

Because every war we wage is another minute that I’m not pretending to make peace

With the life I ought to lead.

And even if I bleed I’m willing to accept the scars because the battlefield is far away.

Our comrades hide their landmines beneath our fingernails

So that every time we clench our fists our lemming dives become their

Barricade on the front line.

And I’m tired of lying.

I’m tired of lying face down while they write boot prints on our backs

And I’m tried of lying to cover our tears

But I love when we lie long enough to cover our tracks.

When we slip off the tightrope of our carnival games

I hope that the slow tumble leads me

To your footprints in the snow.

(Sun)day Nights [AKA Don't Judge Me =(]

This was a collaborative project between myself and a boy named Victor Tran in writing class.  I'm going to boldface the stuff I think he wrote but to be honest I can't remember the separation between all of them.

We watched from our porch as the sun collapsed before our blind eyes.
The darnkess wore me on its naked skin,
And I heard it sing, low and rhythmic as it soaked into the earth...
Parched throats and loss of touch gave rise to
Strangled whispers and empty tears.

We felt the velvet trace of silence
Like cookie crumbs long eaten
And it left memories of scars along our flesh.
Our nights are filled with but One
And we chase it, palms outstretched
But it slips past our fingertips like sea in a net.
How the shadow betray is side.

We remember because the child inside
Refuses to deny
The tragedies of an unkept yesterday
And with every word we write in memorandum of a better tomorrow
We hold the frozen knowledge of today.

And it's Sun

Utter Crap I found in a notebook

>>> Warning! This was written in under 5 minutes while passing (Sun)day Nights back and Forth during writing. Judge it as such. <<<

Brand ourselves with the letters of a generation or two,
Store our dreams in Vending Machines
Until the answer to life's questions are a few quarters and a button's push away.

Write titles into the tags of ragged clothes
And call ourselves designers because we can create.
We sew our names to the backs of babes.

Emboss our crest to the breast of your last car,
Race us as though our status determines our outcome
And play our lines before you watch your life unfold in fiction.

We bet on who comes first and who comes last,
As if reality equals predictability
And a known name determines our right
To survive.

We Love Making The Silent Nightlife


We love making the silent nightlife,
The velvet sky looks out across the underground destinations
And from our beds we see that

We love making the silent nightlife,
Breath’s cashmere hum,
And the pale hue of skin as it slips past
And hides silent under frills.

We love making the silent nightlife,
Our fists lying flat against the honesty of icy touch.
Just set us up on a one stop train
And palm-to-palm we’ll trace our veins
Until they disappear into the angora black.

We love making the silent nightlife,
Counting the travel of stars with our fingertips
The atlas whisper of muted voices
And they swim across our collars.

We love making the silent nightlife
Wishing Good Morning to the falling tears
Of a cheviot sun.

Chelsea




There are too many mistakes here for words.  I'll get around to spell-checking them soon but tonight Je Suis Fatigue(e?)

Chelsea’s dreams are filled with butterflies, swallows, icebergs and Cartesian maps.  The fill the skies with their cries and swells, until the clouds turn pink and the rains fall like liquid gold.  It licks her skin as she dances naked through the backyards of her mind.  Her toes trace the mud that swims up her calves but she continues to spin, eyes towards the sky.
                  It’s no mistake that her gaze floats up, her skies are filled with light and melted gems to keep a smile coaxed upon her infantile face.  If her eyes should drop, the see the ground where dreams become her nightmares and her fears become the clay through which her mind moulds the figures in the gross.  Soldiers lie, their dead eyes staring back from behind a film that mists their view.  The blood soaks through cardboard cloth and tin-hard hats off-angle slip from paled foreheads. 
Once, long ago, Chelsea tried to close the eyes but in minutes they would snap to life and watch her as though behind a milky veil.  For every man she laid to rest, two more appeared in ghostly solid form upon her feet.  They are men, she says, without a soul.  They die for nations, prophets, who claim that after sacrifice comes glory, heaven, everything as some reward.  But it never comes.  Instead they wind up here, in the battlefields that plague the mind of pre-pubescent girls who can’t escape.
So she looks up, pretends she cannot feel their sobs, pretends she doesn’t know that in her Eden lie the broken promises of stories.  The lie as tales, of make believe and unknown claims.  They’re spun from liquid gold that falls from sky and sinks to earth as magic mysteries of life beyond the grave.  With every drop that races down young Chelsea’s cheek she spreads the word that everything is fine.  The gold drops listen, think she’s true, through lies she tells herself just to pretend that this is fake, she’ll be ok.  And every lie to save her mind becomes another lie to kill a man, a boy, prepared to save his soul.
Chelsea’s dreams are filled with butterflies, swallows, icebergs and Cartesian maps.  They rise above her, castle walls to shelter her from bodies.  But they watch her, judge her, even after eyes are closed and lies are said.  The skies are filled with light and so her shadows live upon the ground.  Alone in Dreamworld screams won’t work, her calls go empty, useless, echoes on the ice that utter back.  The butterflies all scatter with her shakes and shrieks, and the swallows take to wing like tiny airplanes course through the heavens no one’s ever found.  The maps are there, a drawn out picture, telling her that here is here.  Though she runs, she dances through her skies of pink, her rains of gold, she can’t wake up and she the world stays still.